I am a habit lover. I’ve lived my life according to schedules. I’ve enjoyed making schedules. Planning and executing my plans has felt great.
But life every once in a while throws you fast curve balls and you have to deal with them.
I’ve dealt with many different curve balls for a while now. Curve balls that have made my schedules useless. Last year for example, I was the primary caretaker of a loved one. I had no personal life. I lived and breathed for another human being. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret any second of that. It was the most rewarding time of my life. It’s just that I sort of lost myself. I lost my habits.
This year, I have slowly been getting my life back. But I’m not quite there yet. It’s November already and I don’t have a steady routine. Every day feels like a box of chocolates (run Forest, run :D). Some days I like that feeling. Other days I don’t.
You know what they say:
Humans are creatures of habit.
I can’t seem to be able to fall back into my old habits or make new ones. So I wonder: Am I human? ha ha ha 😀